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The things I don’t say…

I’m rubbish at verbalising my feelings. Truly rubbish . I consider myself to be a reasonably articulate woman but it ends with the feelings stuff. I could talk to you from now till the end of time about the little things , chips , Beyonce , rugby , reality TV , Doctor Foster. I can even be emotive when talking – I have on numerous occasions tried to explain a certain moment in Doctor Who to none watchers and shed tears!! I can speak passionately about feminism , domestic abuse , mental health. My deep feelings though , they are just impossible to articulate. That’s why I write this blog I suppose , I find it easier to write down how I feel , still not really easy but words , honest heartfelt words, flow better.

I’m doing Blogtober ( a month long challenge to write every day based on a prompt) Today’s prompt was Secrets. I thought , why not write down some of those  feelings and thoughts I have that will never come out of my mouth. Not necessarily secret but things I never said that I have thought and people who have made a difference and I never got to tell them. Not that they’ll read this but some will (probably because I’ll tag them on FB)

*Possible slush alert klaxon*

My sister : My favourite human being on the planet . I do not know how I would get through this life nonsense without you. I admire you in so many ways and I wish I could be a bit more like you . On the shittest of shitty days I know that when I speak to you on the phone I’ll laugh , you get me like noone else and I love that I constantly honk laugh at your house cos it means I’m genuinely bloody happy!! I’m sorry I don’t get home enough but THAT I can rectify! I love you so so so much like properly love you ….Life would be unbearably grim without you in it , so stop using Doctor Google to diagnose yourself with life threatening illnesses please!!

The kids grandparents: You are the most amazing grandparents children could ever wish for. I appreciate how much you do for them , I love that you have the closest of relationships particularly as I have no parents to give them grandparents. I know that you love them as much as I do and thats powerful.You rock.

The school mum crew

Oh my , you lot!!! How did I ever get my child to school with everything she needs without you ??? I love that I don’t have to pretend I am winning at life round you , that I don’t have to don the Supermum cape and pretend to have parenting cracked when we all know I’m just winging it! You 3 are some of the strongest women I know with the most remarkable stories to tell and yet you just wave off what you’ve overcome as though it’s nothing. It’s not nothing , It’s bloody amazing and I’m really quite fond of you!!!

The women who ran The Freedom Programme I went to – You changed my life and saved my sanity . I couldn’t even say Thank you at the time as I didn’t even realise.Thank you so much.

 

Friends I’ve lost touch with

I’m the worst , I promise I’ll do better to keep in touch but we are all so bloody busy. Maybe we can have huge 50th bday parties to rival our 18ths once we all have more time on our hands. I do think of you honestly but isn’t life just quite hectic??

D – The woman who spotted a show off in a shy girls body and did great things to give that shy girl a channel for her repressed extrovert! That was huge.

E – Our conversation changed my mindset. I came home from my trip inspired and motivated and with a certain kind of confidence that comes someone listening and feeding back and being great company and all without expectation or creepiness!(rarer than you may think)

HSG – I am forever grateful for the randomness that has made ‘ this ‘ happen , I think you would say fate…. I’m started to come around to that way of thinking. I have never known another person like you (in the best way ) I’m a better person around you as you round my spiky edges ! Now to beat The Adjustment Bureau!!!

So there we are – the things we think but do not say , that quote has been rattling round in my head since I started writing this. Is it Jerry McGuire??? The name of his mission statement??

That was quite therapeutic actually !! I highly recommend it!

*edited : The things we think AND do not say was Jerry’s mission statement….you know in case it was driving you mad too….as you were!

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The films I love that everyone else hates!

If you’re a regular reader of my little blog it may come as a huge shock to you that I am not a cool person (ok not a shock at all) I’ve never seen any of the cool movies that people pretend are their favourite film because they feel daft saying it’s really Love Actually!

For some reason though , films I really love ( and they’re more than likely going to be slushy and romantic ) most of the movies I adore are ones that most other people I know either look down their noses at them or just call them out as crap!! See what you guys think??

Evita

I know that musicals are never going to be everyone’s cup of tea. Musicals starring Madonna and you’re really pushing it but I bloody love this film. It has an amazing soundtrack “Oh What A Circus” , “High Flying Adored” and of course “Don’t Cry For Me Argentina” to name just a few. It also has the not at all unattractive Antonio Banderas in!!! I mean admittedly casting Jimmy Nail seems a bit off the wall but who I to judge? I happily will spend a rainy Sunday singing along with Evita!

One Day

I kind of get this one’s criticism , as a book lover good books made into movies are always opening themselves up to criticism and it’s a very rare occasion that a movie is better than the book. This film is not that rare occasion but I like it none the less. I think the characters are well cast. Anne Hathaway I love in anything anyway and Jim Sturgess as Dexter is as vile as he’s meant to be in parts. I like movies that span over long periods of time and I do think the film captured this well, which must be much harder to do than in a book.

Gnomeo and Juliet

Don’t hate me but I’m generally not a fan of most kids movies. There are a few exceptions though and this little beauty is one!!! Its the Romeo and Juliet story ( with less tragic consequences) only the characters are garden gnomes…..and with an Elton soundtrack…come on ??That just sounds great right?? ….ok ok bit niche maybe!!

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I think this could possibly only just qualify by the skin of its teeth. I think it’s grown on people over the years but I remember when it first came out and I’d been looking forward to it for ages it got panned everywhere,total one star wonder!!! Again a movie from a book is always tricky and I soooo loved this book by Cecelia Ahern and the film is changed an awful lot. So much so I actually should on principle hate it !! Except I can’t ! I love it ! I just think of the book and the film being two separate entities and that stops me feeling like I’m cheating on the novel.

Also , if you’re interested…Gerard Butler with an Irish accent! You.Are.Welcome.

So there we have it movies I loved that most people don’t!!!

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#Blogtober17 day 3 – Car. I don’t have a car ….

Ok prepare yourselves day 3 sees the first very tenuous link to the theme but I cannot promise you it will be the last. Todays theme is Car. So let me present to you :

I don’t have a car , and 5 other reasons I’m not really a proper grown up…

I don’t have a car 

I see proper grown ups tootling about in their cars. Delivering the kids from place to place without the need to get soggy at the bus stop. I can’t even be trusted to be in charge of my own feet without falling over them and hurting myself I most definitely shouldn’t be in charge of heavy machinery.

I have a crack squad to help me with school admin

The school mums. The guys who assist me in looking to the outside world as if I have this motherhood thing together. They know I’m a bit dozy / forgetful / daydreamy so generally on a day to day basis remind me what’s going on in school what I need to take / pay /remember on any given day. I think fully fledged grown ups have all this stuff written down on one of those smug family calendars.

I’m still a bad loser



I’ve never grown out of this. I can even ‘let’ my own children win board games. In fact I cannot and I will not. To give them their credit they absolutely hammer me at Scrabble anyway and I have not thrown the board in agggeeess – progress!

I don’t have to have tasted foods to know I won’t like them.

Fish , baked beans , eggs , strawberries , kiwi fruit , cauliflower , sweet potato , porridge , mushrooms , hotdogs , duck , parsnips . Just a few of the foods that I have never ever tasted . I just KNOW I won’t like them…..you know,like a toddler!

I’m a bit repetitive

Another one that channels the inner toddler here! My favourite books I’ll read a few times a year , my favourite movies I’ll watch on a bit of a loop. As for my favourite Doctor Who episodes well there are some I must have seen 30 times!! In fact here’s maybe not been a real grown up is a bit harsh. Maybe I’m part obsessive toddler and part stuck in ways old person.

I know what I like!

I am juvenile around my sister

We name call , we relentlessly take the piss out of one another. We do “oh look there’s your best friend” to people we hate . We certainly fall into childish sibling habits very easily and with great relish. Though to be fair she started it!

So you see not having a car is just the tip of the iceberg as far as not qualifying as a real grown up goes.

I promise to try and be way less tenuous with my links to the theme the rest of the month…..or at least the rest of the week!



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